I typed a whole post out on this but deleted it because I got DERAILED. I’m so easily distracted, one minute I’m trying to write some real shit and the next minute I’m typing paragraphs talking shit about some super blogger named Karen.
I DON’T WANT TO WORK 90 HOURS A WEEK SHARING MY OWN SHIT ALL OVER MY OWN SOCIAL MEDIA SO I CAN MAKE MONEY BLOGGING, I JUST WANT TO BLOG. I WILL DO IT MY OWN WAY AND THE MONEY WILL COME. SORRY YOU FEEL THE NEED TO ANNOY EVERYONE FOR A QUICK BUCK.
Okay, I got it out, and its out there.
But for real….
I’m me, thats never going to change. No matter how much I want it to. I want to be fit, and work out, and eat healthy and be trendy. So, I try to do those things and it just never works. THEN I hate myself because it doesn’t work.
WHY CAN’T I GO FROM SWEATPANTS AND SLEEPING ALL DAY TO YOGA 4 TIMES A WEEK, LEATHER LEGGINGS AND LEMON WATERS??? #MessedUp
However, the more I think about it…the more I don’t want to do that. I want the results of those things, and I will continue to try the steps here and there, but I’m not going to go all balls to the wall and get yoga mats and water bottles, and essential oils, and start burning my TV’s in my backyard. You wanna know why? You guess it, ITS NOT ME.
I was all bent out of shape, like literal distress, over what if I try to get healthy and I cant eat cheese fries anymore?? There are people out there who WANT cheese fries but won’t get them???
I won’t ever be that person. I can just be the best version of myself possible, and I’m sorry but that does not include no carbs ever, 6 weekly workouts, only drinking water, and getting shit done everyday. It just doesn’t, it never will. I need sweatpants, I need to sit around, and I. NEED. CHEESE. FRIES.
That is all I can do.
So I’m making changes here and there. This definitely gave me the push to change some shit. I am currently working on changing my morning routine piece by piece, like I know what I want my mornings to look like. However, I also know that wake-up Madison is a biiiitch, so this is just not going to happen in a day. ROME WAS NOT BUILT IN A DAY PEOPLE. I know that I need an adjustment period. I am working on waking up earlier right now, and then the rest of the shit I want to do will follow.
So I’ll continue to make these small changes, when and however I damn well please. I am a constant work in progress, and if I’m never NOT a work in progress that just means I’m not trying hard enough as far as I’m concerned.
I am working toward something great and I know that it will come as long as I stay true to myself on the way. And if it doesn’t…….well at least I wasn’t a SELL OUT…..KAREN.
So just know if you see me making these changes, its because I want to. I’m not trying to be cheesy and trendy. My instagram is going to get a lot better…accept that.
But, until I make these changes, you can catch me doing yoga 1/2 a time a week, listening to the Girls Girls Podcast, eating a salad, and ordering the fucking cheese fries.
Thats the face of a girl who has fried foods on the way at a hockey game. What is your guilty pleasure? Will you ever give it up forever?